quite happy hari ni. Something happened yesterday. Aku gi rumah anak yatim... for the first time. the trip was conducted by ARC (adventure and recreational club) Sisters....at Rumah Bakti Ulu Kelang. Departed from UIA at 3.30 pm, thanks to Cik Beb (he always using that "beb". "Gila beb", "besok kerja beb" .... ntahpape.)

Reached there at about 4.15 pm.

just when we arrived there..

Seeing with my bare eye....the face of happiness.... their laughters.....it all make me felt and thought, that this world is full of love and peace.... just like what I've felt when I was in Darul Quran.

sing together.... laugh together...... iftar together..... re-feeeling the "asrama-kat- smap-dulu", men.....it's so.....I don't know which word would describe my feeling at that time....=>

then, it was 11.15 pm. After salam wida'..... although everyone was still laughing and showing smileys everywhere....deep in my heart, I know that I felt very sad, feeling like... "doesn't want to leave this place..." I think ( it's more to " I know" actually..) everybody feel the same way too....

when I arrived here, UIA-MC, home, I realized that this trip is among the awakening and inspring trip for me... during all my years of living. I felt relived, relieved, and re-created (which is the main idea of "recreation" actually, dont you see it? re-creation....) Right now, I can consider that I have a clearer mind, a better heart, after a "tahap agung punya!" period of blurriness and nothingness . I even have the intention..no, it's not intention, it's more like tendency to re-arrange, re-neaten, and re-organize all my stuff.

Although I went to bed late, at about 3.30 am, I felt good.

Alhamdulillah, I woke up for my sahur, at about 5.00 am.... pray.... sleep ....and rose at about 10.00 I think.

ramadhan..... what a ramadhan! You know, during this time, I'm thinking of something. I think, Allah gave us the ramadhan for us... just for us... to re-create and re-generate ourselvees. You know, without the help of syaitan, we just (should I say just?) need to strain ourself from the temptation... and that's all. If we can make it, then we can be what we dream and hope to be....because 30 days is quite a period. I don't know what others will think about this, but I'm very sure of it. furthermore, that's why there is a Quote, saying that azam is not only could be done in days before new year, but also before ramadhan.

what do you think?

This is the toughest ramadhan I ever experienced !

I feel tired resisting and straining my body to my fever. Man, damn tired! You see..... doing all this managing stuff requires a lot of stamina, and it's burdening me, much, apart from being responsible towards my duty as student.....

still can't figure out the best way to keep in balance... somebody wanna give a hand or two? pakdi? afnan? wandaus? pecot? anyone?

I found my journal back!!!! yes!!!!